Intimacy in Brokenness

I wish I could understand. Just get behind it all and know our incestant foolishness. Yahweh fashioned us from the humble earth. He formed every inch of us, giving the most diligent care and detail down to the very last corner of our hearts. He doesn't just figure us out, He knows us. He is completely aware of our desires, our fears, our likes, our passions, our longings, our failures, our weaknesses, our heartaches...He just knows. So, why then, do we feel a need to be something we are not before Him? We aren't perfect, so don't pretend. We aren't without sin, so don't pretend. We have to stop trying to clean our act up, even as Christians, before we go to the One who loves us more than life. We should stop pretending the sin isn't there, stop pretending you're complete, stop pretending to not be broken. Why are we so hesistant to be broken before the only One who can fix us, make us whole? I know at times I've felt failure in my brokenness before God. Would my Maker reject me in my brokenness? Of course He wouldn't. He will scoop up His creation and make it whole once more. God never despises His children. In Psalm 51:17 David wrote, "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and contrite heart--these, O God, You will not despise." If we can't be broken before God, especially over our sin, who can we be broken before? God waits, all day. He is a patient Father, awaiting our call upon His Name. In Psalm 34:18, David again writes, "The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit." Closeness, nearness, intimacy...all gained through going to the Lord when your heart and spirit are broken. Yes, even broken to the point when you feel as though the pieces are so small that they could pass through the eye of a needle. Come before the Lord, lay your heart bare, tell Him you're hurting, you're hardened and need brokenness, be prepared for Him to draw near to you if you ask. Dependency on the Lord cannot be shameful for in your weaknesses, He is strong!